My life is crazy right now! I can't believe it. I'm absolutely exhausted! Not to mention the price of gas. I just opened an email from an advisor wanting me to make yet another decision (on the fly) about my life and what I plan on doing for the next year. I basically told her, I don't know whether I'm coming or going right now and you want me to decide what? Are you kidding me with this right now? I'm more worried about making it through the rest of the day (it's 7:00 pm) much less worried about what I'll be doing in a year!
I'm tired of making decisions about my life. I want someone else to take the wheel for a while. Why can't I just stay in bed for a few weeks until all of this gets straightened out? I'm pretty much done with school for the time being - I have got to get a new priority in my life. This is taking over the last bit of sanity in my life right now!!
Not to mention I have a "0ne year review" at work tomorrow. I think this is their way of saying, we would like to sit down with you and discuss all you are doing wrong in the hopes that we can break your already fragile spirit only to bring it back up again with false compliments. Do I sound bitter? Have I been there? Maybe.
My soul is wearing thin. I haven't been to church in weeks, and I haven't worshiped in quite a long time. I'm tired of running and I'm tired of pretending. What would the world be like if I just stopped? Stopped all the running and busselling around like a chicken with my head cut off. Would the world stop for me? Probably not. Would it even notice? Definitely not. Maybe I'll try that. Maybe I'll just stop and hope to catch up later.
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