ummm........

So, I'm in a funk. I can't explain it ( like usual) but I'm not feeling great about life right now. I just started an amazing job that I love so far, but my heart is restless. Am I wasting time at Truett? Is there life out there that I'm missing? I picked up the new Mercy Me cd over Christmas break and there's a song that simply contains these lyrics:

"Have fun in life, make it all worth while. Have fun in life, mabye crack a smile. Stop and smell the roses while the roses are in bloom. But promise me you'll honestly have fun in what you do."

Sometimes I feel like I'm missing the boat. What is my purpose? I've been feeling more and more lately that I think God forgot to give me a purpose. Did he simply overlook me? I have no passion in life that comes to mind as something that I would want to devote my entire life to. Is that bad? Does anyone else feel this way?

I'm not having fun in life right now. School is kicking my butt! I know that the struggle is what brings the victory, but really, is that the case?

I've been thinking about my grandfather and how he lived his life. He had such zeal and purpose in his stride. Up until the very end, he loved his life; he wouldn't have traded it for anything. I can't say that right now. I would gladly trade lives with a wife or a mother. Is that my passion - a family? Can you see where I get frustrated just thinking?

All in all, I don't know what's going on. Is this a faith crisis, probably. Maybe if I spend more time in God's Word He will speak to me - because that's my personality (sarcasim).