Easter Sunday

Today is Easter - HE IS RISEN!!!

This is the first holiday that I've spent away from my family. It wasn't terribly hard to be away from them (we celebrated last week) but the hardest part was not being able to go to the church service this morning. Let me tell you why.

Lately, I've found that my relationship with Christ has been very small, if not non-existent. I realize this is the case, but i'm hard-pressed to fix it. I'm not sure how to get the faith back that i've previously had, but it just seemed to me that not being able to go to church this morning kinda put me over the edge. I was able to go to the Good Friday service and it was great. However, after the somber nature of Friday, I needed the worship of Sunday but instead I was stuck in ETC.

I love working ETC, please don't misunderstand that. But I am tired of people not showing up when they say they will. I am tired of no one stepping up when I ask simply because they "don't want too". What makes them think I want too? I know that sounds harsh for me to say, but I'm sorry. I would like to go to church every now and then too.

I don't know how to make my relationship better. I'm looking for a mentor to help move me through this journey. Hopefully, I'll be able to find someone to help me with this process. I've even thought about attending a different church on Sunday mornings. I know that's not good practice to work at one church and attend another, but I HAVE to be fed somehow. I don't know what God is teaching me through this process, but it's wearing on my soul!