Life's been a little crazy lately. I feel like I'm a bull rider just hanging on for 8 seconds except my hand is stuck in the rope and I can jump off this wild ride. It feels like a tornado has come through and I can't seem to find my "safe place". It feels like....well, I think you get the picture.

This semester got off to a flying start and with midterms just passed, it seems like it's not slowing down for anyone or anything. Classes are literally just a *swoosh* by my head. I've gotten a lot done this semester but there is still so much to do.

I'm working on finding a place for my intership in the spring. So far, it's been narrowed down to Belton, Texas or Corsicana, Texas. Both are at churches doing grant writing and so forth. No, this is not my life goal, but there's not much else out there to do, expect Child Protective services and I'm not so sure that's a great fit for me. So, I'm just taking it day by day!

Work is going well. I'm interested to find out how an internship and work and classes mixes together next semester. I'm teaching a missions emphasis class on Wednesday nights to 1st-6th graders called TEKNA. Don't ask me what it stands for because I honestly don't know. They are great fun, but it's a lot of work and it's taking a lot out of me. Why can't I learn to say "No"!

Friends are okay, I guess. I'm definitely in a valley right now. I'm trying to find my place among them and if I even have a place anymore. After numerous conversations with people who I thought were friends, it has come to my attention that we may not be the best fit anymore. There was a long and painful lunch this week that was hard to swallow. It seems as if this was a long time coming anyway. Maybe it's for the best - maybe God has different plans for me. Whatever the case may be, at least I have my dog and I KNOW she loves me. When all else fails, go to the dog!

I'm homesick. I was home for a long weekend and I loved it. I didn't take one stinkin book home and didn't even think about reading, etc. while I was there. IT WAS GREAT!

I'm anxious to see what this journey is holding for me. I've trusted in blindness and I feel as though I need some sort of sign now. My spiritual walk with God is definitely less than what it should be. I'm having a hard time focusing on God. With my seminary classes it seems as though I spend some much time learning that I forget I have to trust God. I'm working on it. I'm trying to start praying again - that's a huge step. I know that this time has come for a reason, but maybe, just maybe, I can get out soon!