What was I thinking?

I am freaking out! My internship starts in less than 10 hours and I am stressing, big time. I can't sleep, my stomach is killing me, and I seem to keep sweating. I need sleep, I'm tired, but I have a feeling that sleep will ellude me tonight. God help me!

Maybe I should stop writing blogs at 11 at night.

I had dinner with friends tonight. It was good but I'm still struggling with lonliness. I can't seem to get a grasp on what went so wrong. As they were talking about things in their life, it was like I had never met them before. I had no idea that one friend broke up with her boyfriend, that one friend was crushing big-time, one friend was in a new relationship, and yet another friend was getting serious with his significant other. Where have I been? Two words - Social Work. Why is it that a profession that deals with people everyday lead me to such a secluded life? I hate this! I hate not knowing what's going on in their life.

I'm burned out. I'm lonely, tired, and sad because my life is not what a 27 year olds life should look like. Will it get better? God I hope so.