Heavy Heart

Tonight I have a heavy heart.....

If you've been following lately, my grandmother has been pretty sick. When I spoke with my mother tonight on the phone, she mentioned that g-ma has been pretty "down" this week with all the poking and prodding the doctors are doing to find out exactly what is going on. Today was a scheduled colonoscopy and the like. I just wish something would be found. Mom is exhausted and is wearing thin. Thank goodness I'm not an only child.

Not only is my grandmother sick but friends are also sick with many tests following as well. It seems that when it rains it pours.

After graduation I realized that it seems as if God puts people in my life only to take them away way too soon (moving, marriage, etc., not necessiarly dying!). This truth has once again raised it's ugly head. I'm not sure why finding a mentor has to be so tough. I realize He's in control, but some times it feels as if He's playing games with my emotions. I really wish I could find someone in my life who is constant that I could share a mentoring relationship with without the fear of losing that person too soon. This weighs on me. I can't help but wonder why we so desperately seek a mentoring relationship? Is it the relationship, the support and love, or the idea that someone has walked that road before? It really is an interesting concept. I so desire this for my life.

Anyway, I'm applying for jobs for the fall - please keep me in your prayers!